I watched
Bugs today.
This time around, I am struck by Dean's line, something to the effect of "Manicured lawns, 'Honey, I'm home.' I'd blow my brains out." This, of course, immediately brought to mind the opening of S6, as well as the recurring references to Dean's secret dream that he'd drop hints about previously throughout the series.
Even as early as "Skin," previous to this comment in "Bugs," the 'shifter, downloading Dean's thoughts, mentioned that Dean had dreams of his own. At the end of S1, Dean mentions having wanted to be a firefighter when he was little. John says he wants Dean to have a home.
I can't help but think that this line about Dean's aversion to "normalcy" . . . He's trying to convince himself as much as anyone. Heck, maybe he even believes it at the time. He probably does. But over the course of the series, he's acknowledged or admitted that part of him, deep down, wants a home and a family. Even if he doesn't think he can have it, even if he's resigned himself to not having it and has thrown himself back into hunting, it's there, it's part of him, and it has been since the beginning of the series.
Oh, Dean.
Also, as I was driving home from work today, I was listening to my S1/S2 mix CD that I created a long while back, and I was thinking about the music they used for the opening of S6. And you know? It occurred to me that even with its ups and downs, I really rather like S6 for what it is. It doesn't have the same feel that the show did in early seasons, but I didn't really expect it to. The characters have been through too much. But taken on its own merit, I like it. It had its flaws, to be sure, but overall, it kept me entertained.
So there ya go.