C'est moi. Soy yo. 'Tis I.

[feliciakw]

The Me Meme.

Gakked from kimmer1227.

The problem with LJ: We all think we are so close, but really we know nothing about one another. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

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[leelust.livejournal.com]

Since there already was a question about your hubby i ask about the other man you seem interested in. (my memory sucks so if you already told about it, sorry). How did you 'notice' Jensen and what makes you follow him?

[feliciakw.livejournal.com]

:-) Yes, I've talked about this extensive in the past, but that's okay. It's always fun to reminisce. So I'll just re-trace my infatuation with excerpts from previous entries. Should be fun!

Referring to happenings on Oct. 27, 2007:

Izhilzha introduced Geo and me to Supernatural. The pilot ep is really cool, and I knew Geo would like it. Turns out he likes the show a lot. More on that later. But SPN very much reminded me of The Lost Boys, so I introduced Sarah to cheesy-fun 80s horror starring a very young Keiffer Sutherland. SPN very much echoes Lost Boys--brother element, supernatural freakiness, great soundtrack, cool cars. I'd forgotten how fun the movie is. I used to go running at night with the soundtrack in my walkman. Very freaky.

From an entry dated Nov. 20, 2007:

My brain is being co-opted, shang-hied, and otherwise eaten by the Brothers Winchester, originally of Lawrence, KS. It's all izhilzha's fault, with her oh-so-capable accomplices Dean, and my own husband of all people!!!!

It's Jensen Ackles' fault, really. Well, Izhi's fault for introducing me, Geo's fault for providing the discs behind my back, and Mr. Ackle's fault for being such a freakin' talented actor. (I miss my theater peeps. Wah!!!!)

My problem is this: I only do one obsession at a time, and I'm not ready to leave LA and the Eppeses. But . . . ya know . . . Dean . . . the smile . . . the voice . . . the charm . . . the angst . . . Okay, so, I've never really gone for the "bad boy" type, not really, but dang!!! He reminds me of people I actually know, kinda. Especially some of his facial expressions.

What does it say that Izhi came to visit at the end of October, and by mid-November Geo and I have gone through S1 & S2 straight through, do not pass "Go," do not collect $200? That's just not right.

But dang!

Entry dated Dec. 13, 2007:

Just a reminder, this is all izhilzha's fault. Hers and Geo's. Hers and Geo's and Jensen Ackles'. She introduced me, he enabled me, Jensen enthralled me. Okay, Jared Padalecki is not blameless in the equation--not by a long shot--but thespically speaking, I lean a little toward Jensen. Totally their fault. I was minding my own business, enjoying my N3, living my life, when Sarah comes to visit less than 2 months ago, and introduces me to the Winchester Boys. Cool pilot ep. Entertaining. Geo would like it. So we watch the second ep of the series, but I insist that he check out the first ep (because it was better). At this point, I'm thinking, "Okay, cool. Good show, though I don't think I could take horror on a weekly basis. I prefer my horror in 2-hour cinematic doses during the appropriate season of the year. Actually I prefer spook movies to straight-up horror. But now I know who these characters are, and when Sarah starts on about Sam and Dean, I'm not completely in the dark." But then . . .

At some point during the Impala love and the hidden arsenal and the metal soundtrack, Geo says, "We have to get these discs."

I was doomed.

So he gets Season 1, which we rip through in short order, the finale of which left me yelling at the TV, "That's just cheating!!!" They left it in a horrible cliffhanger, you see. So I ask when we can get Season 2.

And he pulls Season 2 out of . . . I have no idea where he was hiding it, but he'd already bought it is the point.

So we rip through Season 2.

Then he downloads what's aired of Season 3 from iTunes. We were good and waited until after Thanksgiving to start in on that, but we went through those eps in short order as well. Which brings us to tonight.

Part 2

[feliciakw.livejournal.com]

I started researching Jensen's pre-SPN work around the beginning of 2008, as my first Dark Angel review is dated Jan. 25, 2008. I had actually seen Jensen's S1 DA ep prior to seeing SPN, but I didn't know who he was. But when I started looking at his background and discovered he'd been in an ep, I knew exactly which ep it was, because it was the only ep to hold my interest beginning to end when I caught a DA marathon on TV once.

Then I did a review of Devour on Feb. 4. A more specific review of DA is dated Feb. 10.

Then last summer (summer 2008) I did the Project Still Life Recap.

And I'm pretty sure there's a review of Ten Inch Hero somewhere in my LJ.

But let's talk about Jensen. I wrote the following on Feb. 20, 2009, in response to kalquessa's request that I explain my infatuation with Jensen Ackles:

Oh, good grief. You really want that I should take up that much space? You really want to get me wound up? Okay, here goes. *cracks knuckles*

How do I love Jensen? Let me count the ways. (Actually, that will be a post in and of itself, because I'm still having trouble finding the words to express my admiration.)

I was introduced to the work of Jensen Ackles in October 2007, when izhilzha sat me down to watch SPN. After a few (a couple?) weeks (days?) I was completely enamored of the guy, not just as a pretty face (which he totally is), but as an actor. He does things I couldn’t even dream of accomplishing. His mastery of nuance is a thing to behold. And he’s not afraid to make a fool of himself. He just . . . is an amazing actor. Full stop.

As a man, he is beautiful. And I don’t know how else to explain that. Because it wasn’t until I saw him as an actor that I fell full-on for his looks. But he is a beautiful man, and he gets better looking the older he gets.

Plus, by all reports and con clips and interviews I’ve seen, he’s a kind, generous, patient human being. He has charm and charisma and manners, and he's so down-to-earth and honest in his reactions and responses. There’s no such thing as the “perfect” man, but dang.

I’ve said it often, and only half in jest: Jensen Ackles is evidence of the existence of God. Someone whose genetics combine to create someone as physically beautiful as Jensen, who is also as talented as Jensen is . . . that just doesn’t happen by random chance. There’s a design behind that. I am, no pun intended, awed by the man, both the actor and the person. (And yes, I know that as a human, he's flawed, he's got faults. But we won't get into that here.)

I probably sound like a crazed, rabid fangirl, and I'm being redundant with the use of amazing, but this is all honest feeling. And my concern for him is as a person first and foremost. (Conversation threads that do nothing but objectify him as nothing more than . . . well . . . an object well and truly drive me batty.) Because he just seems like an amazing man.

With any luck, he'll be an actor who can keep my attention into his next project. (I have a pattern of moving from one actor infatuation to another.) I think I probably will because most of his work is very accessible. He also gives every impression of being not just a good actor but a really good guy. A good person.

Does that answer your question?