SPN - 6.21

[feliciakw]

My heart hurts.


The last time one of my shows did this (to Donna Noble at the end of that season of Dr. Who), I balled my eyes out for 20 minutes.

I think it will take a while for the tears to come this time, but my heart hurts so very much right now.

I'm watching with my mom. Her comment was, "Dean made the ultimate sacrifice. He let her go."

And I was right, in a manner of speaking. Dean has ceased to exist for Lisa and Ben.


*sob*

I'll have much to say about it in my long and rambly. *sob*

Comments

[gatorpez.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah, this one hurt. Jensen did such a great job of conveying all of Dean's pain and emotions.

I agree with your mom, it was the ultimate sacrifice. I wanted to smack Sam when he made that comment to Dean in the Impala.

[feliciakw.livejournal.com]

I totally understand why Dean had Cas wipe their memories, and it was a sacrifice.

But I can't be completely angry at Sam, either, because tend to agree with him. What Dean had Cas do was steal a part of Lisa and Ben's lives. (In fic, I've seen it called "mind rape.") They had zero choice in the matter. Dean decided for them to remove a part of their lives.

It was to make their lives easier, to restore their innocence when it comes to things that go bump in the night. To save them the trauma of what they went through. And I appreciate that.

But it doesn't keep them safe. It doesn't change how Dean feels about them. Ergo, they can still be targets.

Also, are there any evidences of Dean still lurking about their house? Last we saw the leather jacket--which, yes, I know was stolen in real life. But last we saw it, it was in a box in Lisa's garage. Storywise, it's still there.

And I love Dean for making the sacrifice, but I also strongly question the wisdom of Dean's request.

Regardless, it hurts. I'm going to be wibbling about it all summer. *sob*

More in my rambly when I get to it.

[ficwriter1966.livejournal.com]

I mentioned in your other post - Cas would also have had to mind-wipe all of Lisa and Dean's neighbors, Dean's co-workers, etc, etc. Realistically, he would also have had to construct fake memories of the past year to fill in the blank spots. 'Cause Lisa would be wondering, why were they in whatever town they had the "car accident" in.

Yep, I figure the "mind rape" caterwauling is going on as we speak.

You know what the biggest question in my mind is, right now?

When are they going to acknowledge that DEAN WENT TO HELL TOO? And managed/manages to function perfectly OK with any mental drywall, or devolving into a drooling vegetable. I try not to get into the Dean vs. Sam debate, but that annoys the heck right out of me.

[feliciakw.livejournal.com]

Yes, the whole memory wipe is a little problematic, because it's such a ripple effect. I figure that the wipe was specific to memories of Dean, and fake memories are a possibility, but what of the little evidences of Dean that are no doubt still lurking about? (Oooh . . . I think I feel Musey tapping me on the shoulder with angst-fic.)

Still, I think this is their way of eliminating Lisa and Ben from the story while A) letting them live "happily," and B) giving Dean the maximum angst for our buck. The way Jensen played that whole thing . . . It just hurt. So very, very sad.

But I am relieved that they didn't kill them off. *nods*

I'm not too keen on the Dean vs. Sam wars, either. I suppose I can understand the idea that Sam was being beat up by two archangels, and that his soul was fractured (whether by that or by Cas's failed attempt to bring him back). It would be nice, though, if they didn't forget that Dean spent a goodly amount of time on the rack, too. Though they did kind of revisit his days as torturer in the first ep.