Entry tags:
- depression,
- drwho,
- fandom,
- spn
My corner of fandom, 'tis a lonely place
My little corner of fandom, 'tis a lonely place right now.
Dr. Who just wiped clean the memory of one of my favorite characters. It's as if her adventures never happened. I'm sitting here with my chin trembling, my lip quivering, and tears dripping down my face. The Donna we knew, the Donna The Doctor knew, is gone. And the way they left it, they can't bring her back. (Still, this being Dr. Who, anything is possible, right? Right?)
This is on top of the loneliness I've felt today in regards to SPN fandom. It's silly, I know. It's just a TV show.
I've made a choice to try to remain as unspoiled as I can for the upcoming season. The loneliness comes when I realize that everyone I converse with has been spoiled. This in effect negates any and all speculation we might banter about, because anything I say is bound to be wrong, and they know it. I've got no one to talk to about what could happen, because they know what will happen. And anything I speculate will be so off base as to seem misguided and foolish. So what's the point?
I've even thought, well, since the entire cast and crew are yammering away, why then, it doesn't matter if I'm spoiled. Obviously, they want their audience to be spoiled. The buzz and the chatter keep interest up. It's a publicity tool. So there ya go. I've considered hunting down the first 5 minutes of 4.1, simply so I can have something to talk to my correspondents about. But then I think, no, I don't want to see it on my little computer screen, a crummy picture that streams in fits and starts. Even a rough cut deserves better than that. I want to see it for the first time in all its heart pounding glory.
And though my fannish self is crushed by the season finale of Dr. Who, I'm glad I was unspoiled for it. It wouldn't have held the emotional punch if I'd seen it coming.
My little corner of fandom, 'tis a lonely place.