I figure I can find out what happened, just by checking in on my Friends page. That eliminates the frustration of actually spending an hour wading through an episode. I enjoy Jensen's work too, but it's gotten to the point where there's nothing new (in a positive sense) to be added to my headcanon for Dean Winchester, and I can't see spending an hour of my time watching somebody suffer. The show doesn't seem to have any sense that Dean will eventually WIN, and with a complete lack of hope... what's the point? Each episode feels like punishment, instead of something I can relax with and/or learn from.
But, hey, if you can still get something out of it, rock on!
Actually, some of the negativity with the show/character and my own identification with the character has gotten me to thinking about stuff that's been going on with me, and where I might need to make changes.
I've been going to a very difficult time the past few/several months, and while to someone else it might be "oh, you totally don't have it that bad" (and in a lot of ways I don't), the dissatisfaction and paranoia and fear have put me in a not fun headspace.
Being able to watch the show without any real "expectation" or the intense investment that I used to feel, while at the same time watching Dean's issues and saying hey, I need to let this go/move on/re-evaluate . . . I don't know, it's just weirdly helpful.
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But, hey, if you can still get something out of it, rock on!
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I've been going to a very difficult time the past few/several months, and while to someone else it might be "oh, you totally don't have it that bad" (and in a lot of ways I don't), the dissatisfaction and paranoia and fear have put me in a not fun headspace.
Being able to watch the show without any real "expectation" or the intense investment that I used to feel, while at the same time watching Dean's issues and saying hey, I need to let this go/move on/re-evaluate . . . I don't know, it's just weirdly helpful.
Maybe.
I'm not expressing myself well.