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SPN - "The Rapture"
Okey dokey. Let's see what I can get done here. Possibly way too much to even express, because . . . yeah . . .
Then: Recap of who Castiel is and why he appears to people as he does. Sammy with the bloodsucking (and not in the metaphorical sense).
Now:
Sittin' on the dock of the bay. Dean's fishing. I didn't know Dean liked fishing. And, hey, that kinda looks like the dock where they shot "Dead in the Water." But then, I suppose all docks look similar on TV, huh. And you know? It also reminds me of Jack O'Neill's fondness for fishing. Richard Dean Anderson totally needs to be a guest angel.
Has anybody mentioned Jensen's amazingly long lashes recently? Because whenever the guy is in profile, that's the only way to describe them. I know many women who would kill for lashes like that. Not fair. Anyway . . .
Someone could be eavesdropping inside Dean's head? That's . . . a little disconcerting.
And I must admit that it makes me kinda warm and fuzzy the way Dean and Sam rush to Cas's--or rather, Jimmy's--side when they find him.
"Where the hell is Castiel?" Dean! You're a poet and don't know it.
Castiel is gone is . . . well, as I said, "Well, that's not good."
Title flash.
Jimmy's appetite is almost as ravenous as Dean's. Wait. Watching Jimmy is going to give Dean angina? Jimmy, you should win some kind of prize or something. Very few things that are of this world can make Dean not want to eat.
And, okay, I'm really enjoying the contrast we're getting between Castiel and Jimmy. It's kinda nice to see Misha playing "human." And I like Jimmy's casual bearing and attitude. He . . . seems like a lot of guys I used to know. But I'll get to that later. Maybe.
Jimmy's from Pontiac, Illinois. 'Cause that's where Dean was buried and resurrected, right. Yay continuity.
Sam and Dean's conversation in the parking lot, and I love that Sam is so . . . "Sam" here. Logical, earnest, laying things out for Dean. I'm also getting that role reversal thing again. Sam is very correct in his assumption that Jimmy needs protecting, but I love that Dean's the one who harkens back to the "saving people," when the primary goal of the job was reuniting families. Dean has always been in this primarily for family.
But of course Dean sees the logic in Sam's argument.
I also like that Dean's the one to try to convince Jimmy. Do he and Sam think that because it's been Dean to have the relationship with Castiel, Dean will automatically be the one Jimmy relates to? Or is it because Sam is now the more hardened hunter and Dean is the people person?
"So, what? Now I'm a prisoner?" Think of it more like witness protection.
So, Sam sneaks out.
Then Jimmy--fully clothed including his suit jacket bzuh?--gets out of bed and sneaks out. Both leaving Dean alone, sleeping, and very vulnerable.
Well, at least he's still got Castiel to look out for him--wait. No, he doesn't. *sob*
Sam? What's that in that silver flask you have? Is that chocolate syrup? It must be chocolate syrup. Yes, I've seen many a chocoholic get that same desperate look. That's ingenious. Carry a flask of chocolate syrup for when the cravings get to be too much. Because I know, I just know that can't be Ruby blood. *sob*
Well, that's not good.
Please note Dean's blue toothbrush in contrast to Sam's pink/purple toothbrush. I somehow sense that this was established back when they were children and they had color coded toothbrushes in order to keep the separate. I somehow picture John letting Dean pick out the toothbrushes once, and of course Dean chose blue for himself and pink/purple for Sam, and from that day forth, their toothbrush colors have not changed. Conversely, it could be because it's Jensen's favorite color, and the prop department defaulted to the color of their respective spike marks.
"I was getting a Coke."
"Was it a refreshing Coke?"
This got audible laughter out of Geo.
Jimmy cooks! I think I could fall for Jimmy. And they've got a large old-ish radio. I could see Geo having one of these. Actually . . . I think he has had old radios like that, though none of them are out around the house right now.
Okay, arm in a boiling pot is rather disturbing. (And now I'm wondering how the tech department would do that as a practical effect. Air bubbles?)
Dean and Sam, driving in the rain, and suddenly they've got a back seat passenger. This got audible laughter from both Geo and me, because Dean with the startled and the car swervy is hilarious.
Though I admittedly could have done without Dean's attempt to flirt with Anna and that particular exchange.
I like that she notices something different about Sam, though.
And here's the first point of the ep that starts twigging me: when getting called back to Heaven isn't good, it's painfully, awfully bad. But I suppose I have to remember that "heaven" does not equate with God in the SPN 'verse. Possibly he got recalled by Zach. And getting ripped out of the vessel's body maybe isn't the most pleasant thing. So . . . whatever, I guess.
And as Jimmy watches his daughter through the window, the only thing I can think is "It's Lilith! Nooooo!!! Be careful!!!!"
Hm . . . . so being capable of being a vessel--of hearing an angel's true voice and seeing its true from is in the blood? Interesting . . .
"It's God's will. Not really my place to question it." I love the way Misha delivers that line. Firm, but with humor, the way I'd expect a modern man of faith would deliver it. Not fanatical and robotic. Jimmy has faith, and to others, even other believers, sometimes that kind of faith looks, well, crazy.
Amelia's fear is understandable, and the threat to take Claire away is just the kind of thing one would expect her to do. Conversely, it's just that kind of obstacle that Jimmy, as a man of faith, would be expected to face.
And, hey. Is that the same house/set they used for Mary's house in WIaWSNB? It looks kinda familiar.
So Jimmy can not only hear angles, but he can see them. Excellent.
"I am not your father." And there we go. Castiel's voice, and that's just pretty cool. Nice definition between characters in addition to the differences in physicality. Well played.
And it just hurts to see a man who's lost his faith. It's understandable, but it hurts.
And there's Sam, doing some begging of his own. And I believe here is where Ruby shows her true colors. Like any good pusher, she's now got Sam hooked. He can't get by without his fix, and he's desperate. She controls him now, which I believe was her plan all along. Last season the control came (or could have come) from the promise of helping him save Dean (which didn't work out real well, thanks to Dean). This season it's getting him addicted, and like any junkie, he'll do anything. And once Sam kills Lilith, Ruby will control the person who controls Lilith's minions. She's a sly one, that Ruby.
And this is why I could really love Jimmy. A man of faith who loves his wife and loves his daughter. That's why it hurts so much to see him lose his faith. For me, the gut punch comes when Claire asks, "Daddy, aren't you going to say grace?" And Jimmy's reply is a tearful "No, honey. I don't think I am." My eyes prick with tears at that. And I'm not sure someone who's not a person of faith can understand to the sorrow a believer feels when they see another believer lose their faith. Crises of faith, sure. Because questions and doubts are natural. But to completely give up on it . . . that's just . . .
And it hurts Jimmy as much as anyone. To live through the trials he's lived through, and to come out on the other side, and to give up his faith because of it. Within Show it's an understandable character point, but it's sad nonetheless.
And doorbell rings. Neighbor Roger looks really familiar. I think I've seen him play a villain in something before? Or maybe just a random security guard or something? Either way, he's a demon, Jimmy. Don't trust him!
Well, that's not good.
Oh good, Jimmy remembers about the salt.
Two demons on the job. Not good. But there's Dean with the Ginsu. Yay Dean!
Oh. Oh, Sam. See what addiction does? Oh, Sam.
"Where's your wife?" She's possessed. Why do you ask?
". . . vivisection, if they're feeling generous." Listen to him, Jimmy. Dean knows what he's talking about.
Wow, Sam. I'm with Dean. "Don't sugar coat it." He needs to understand, sure, but Sam? He's still a person with connections to a family. Must you really be so . . . vivid . . . about his options?
"These boys are gonna get you a car. Don't ask me how." And both Geo and I snickered at that because it's so . . . true.
Hotwire and "So, uh, here's your car." Bwah!
And of course Dean knows that something's up with Sam. It's very obvious.
And Jimmy yelling at Castiel is actually a good thing, in a way. Because in this case, anger indicates relationship, and there's no relationship without faith. So . . . while not ideal, it's still a good thing.
The actress who's playing Amelia and demon!Amelia? She's really very good. And kinda creepy about it. Nice versatility.
SHE SHOT JIMMY!!!!! And at this point my internal monologue becomes something like this:
But he can't die! They can't lose Misha! He had one more scene to shoot with Jensen, for the finale, right? Right? So we're not gonna lose Misha. Right. Okay. Scene with Jensen. Yes. Wewon'tloseMishawewon'tloseMishawewon'tloseMisha.
And Dean is horrified to see that. Jimmy, shot in the gut.
Castiel is in Claire! Excellent!!! Zapping demons!
Castiel saves Dean from being beaten to a pulp by a demon!
Sam . . . oh, Sam . . . going all vampire on the demon chick. Oh . . . And coming up all bloody, and now Dean and Cas know.
And Dean is naturally horrified that he just witnessed his brother sucking blood, let alone from a demon.
And when Sam comes at him with his hand stretched out, Dean flinches. Oh, Dean.
This next bit is beautiful. "Of course we keep our promises. Your work is done. It's time to go home now. Your real home." That's what a Christian longs to hear at the end of their days: "Well done, good and faithful servant."
Claire has chosen, chosen to let Castiel use her, just as her father did. Faith passed on.
And there's something in her blood, too.
But Jimmy's plea is for his daughter not to have to live through what he himself did.
" . . . Picture a hundred, a thousand, like it." So, Cas? How long, exactly, are you expecting to stick around? Or is that an estimate on how long Armageddon is going to last?
"You'll never age, you'll never die." But could you, ya know, feed him a cheeseburger every once in a while? I'm sure he'd appreciate it. I'm sure Dean would spring for the pie.
"I learned my lesson while I was away. I serve Heaven, I don't serve man. And I certainly don't serve you." Ouch. I mean, I totally understand where he's coming from. It's true an angel's first allegiance is to God. But angels are ministering spirits who actually do minister to man. But I need to remember that in the SPN 'verse, "Heaven" is not synonymous with "God," as I'm used to thinking of it. So there's that.
But I might post about the angels as ministering spirits thing after I'm done reading my angel book. That's a post for another time.
It's great to see Castiel as God's powerful warrior again. But I can't help but hurt a little bit for Dean as Castiel turns his back on Dean and walks away. I believe my comment going into commercial was, "Oh. Now, that's going to cause some consternation."
Dean has lost another of his very limited number of supporters in this, it would seem. *wibble*
This conversation between the brothers also hurts. Sam, asking for the fall-out, only to discover that Dean isn't going to oblige. Dean's tired (understandable) and ready to throw in the towel. You know it's bad if Dean is beyond throwing a punch or pitching a fit.
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kalquessa and I had an interesting conversation in this regard. She's observed that arguing is Sam's validation, his proof, that he's right. He and John argued a lot, and that was Sam's confirmation that Sam was right and John was wrong. Same with the big blow-ups with Dean. But Dean's not blowing up this time, which means Sam isn't getting his confirmation of being in the right. He's not getting the chance to explain himself or validate his actions or do any of the things he's been doing for as long as we've known him to reassure himself. Therefore, things must be really bad. I thought that was a really interesting observation. In an observationally interesting kind of way.
Of course, the "I am just done," apparently means "I'm just done talking, Sam. I'm done playing games. I'm done trying to get you to tell me the truth. I'm tired of fighting you at every turn. Now I know what's going on, I can do something about it."
Bobby! I saw your name in the opening credits, and I was wondering what took you so long to show up!
"So, uh, what's the big demon problem?" "You are." And they slam the door shut! And close the little portal thingy! WHAT???? *FLAILFLAILFAIL*
Oh, this is not good. This is so very, very not good.
Soon: Oh, this is bad. This is very, very bad. This is so very, very not good.
Detoxing Sam. And keeping him locked up. And . . . wow. Dean swears allegiance to God and his angels, in a very pragmatic and Dean-like way. And Sam confronting Lilith. And Zach returns. And Sam hallucinating Alistair (I assume he's hallucinating, since he killed Alistair), and he's gonna get a taste of what Dean went through in Hell. And Dean refusing to let Sam turn into a monster, and yet having had demon blood in him since he was six months old, and with the high quantities he's gotten recently, it might kill him not to get some.
And Sam beating Dean to a pulp. And Castiel somehow zapping Dean (?????) And Sam with icky vein things crawling over his face. And Sam getting tossed around the room.
And Sam and Ruby hooking back up. And Dean out to kill Ruby. And Dean telling Sam that if he leaves, don't ever come back *ouch*, and the final confrontation with Lilith.
This is so very, very not good.
*starts stocking for the pillow fort*
Then: Recap of who Castiel is and why he appears to people as he does. Sammy with the bloodsucking (and not in the metaphorical sense).
Now:
Sittin' on the dock of the bay. Dean's fishing. I didn't know Dean liked fishing. And, hey, that kinda looks like the dock where they shot "Dead in the Water." But then, I suppose all docks look similar on TV, huh. And you know? It also reminds me of Jack O'Neill's fondness for fishing. Richard Dean Anderson totally needs to be a guest angel.
Has anybody mentioned Jensen's amazingly long lashes recently? Because whenever the guy is in profile, that's the only way to describe them. I know many women who would kill for lashes like that. Not fair. Anyway . . .
Someone could be eavesdropping inside Dean's head? That's . . . a little disconcerting.
And I must admit that it makes me kinda warm and fuzzy the way Dean and Sam rush to Cas's--or rather, Jimmy's--side when they find him.
"Where the hell is Castiel?" Dean! You're a poet and don't know it.
Castiel is gone is . . . well, as I said, "Well, that's not good."
Title flash.
Jimmy's appetite is almost as ravenous as Dean's. Wait. Watching Jimmy is going to give Dean angina? Jimmy, you should win some kind of prize or something. Very few things that are of this world can make Dean not want to eat.
And, okay, I'm really enjoying the contrast we're getting between Castiel and Jimmy. It's kinda nice to see Misha playing "human." And I like Jimmy's casual bearing and attitude. He . . . seems like a lot of guys I used to know. But I'll get to that later. Maybe.
Jimmy's from Pontiac, Illinois. 'Cause that's where Dean was buried and resurrected, right. Yay continuity.
Sam and Dean's conversation in the parking lot, and I love that Sam is so . . . "Sam" here. Logical, earnest, laying things out for Dean. I'm also getting that role reversal thing again. Sam is very correct in his assumption that Jimmy needs protecting, but I love that Dean's the one who harkens back to the "saving people," when the primary goal of the job was reuniting families. Dean has always been in this primarily for family.
But of course Dean sees the logic in Sam's argument.
I also like that Dean's the one to try to convince Jimmy. Do he and Sam think that because it's been Dean to have the relationship with Castiel, Dean will automatically be the one Jimmy relates to? Or is it because Sam is now the more hardened hunter and Dean is the people person?
"So, what? Now I'm a prisoner?" Think of it more like witness protection.
So, Sam sneaks out.
Then Jimmy--fully clothed including his suit jacket bzuh?--gets out of bed and sneaks out. Both leaving Dean alone, sleeping, and very vulnerable.
Well, at least he's still got Castiel to look out for him--wait. No, he doesn't. *sob*
Sam? What's that in that silver flask you have? Is that chocolate syrup? It must be chocolate syrup. Yes, I've seen many a chocoholic get that same desperate look. That's ingenious. Carry a flask of chocolate syrup for when the cravings get to be too much. Because I know, I just know that can't be Ruby blood. *sob*
Well, that's not good.
Please note Dean's blue toothbrush in contrast to Sam's pink/purple toothbrush. I somehow sense that this was established back when they were children and they had color coded toothbrushes in order to keep the separate. I somehow picture John letting Dean pick out the toothbrushes once, and of course Dean chose blue for himself and pink/purple for Sam, and from that day forth, their toothbrush colors have not changed. Conversely, it could be because it's Jensen's favorite color, and the prop department defaulted to the color of their respective spike marks.
"I was getting a Coke."
"Was it a refreshing Coke?"
This got audible laughter out of Geo.
Jimmy cooks! I think I could fall for Jimmy. And they've got a large old-ish radio. I could see Geo having one of these. Actually . . . I think he has had old radios like that, though none of them are out around the house right now.
Okay, arm in a boiling pot is rather disturbing. (And now I'm wondering how the tech department would do that as a practical effect. Air bubbles?)
Dean and Sam, driving in the rain, and suddenly they've got a back seat passenger. This got audible laughter from both Geo and me, because Dean with the startled and the car swervy is hilarious.
Though I admittedly could have done without Dean's attempt to flirt with Anna and that particular exchange.
I like that she notices something different about Sam, though.
And here's the first point of the ep that starts twigging me: when getting called back to Heaven isn't good, it's painfully, awfully bad. But I suppose I have to remember that "heaven" does not equate with God in the SPN 'verse. Possibly he got recalled by Zach. And getting ripped out of the vessel's body maybe isn't the most pleasant thing. So . . . whatever, I guess.
And as Jimmy watches his daughter through the window, the only thing I can think is "It's Lilith! Nooooo!!! Be careful!!!!"
Hm . . . . so being capable of being a vessel--of hearing an angel's true voice and seeing its true from is in the blood? Interesting . . .
"It's God's will. Not really my place to question it." I love the way Misha delivers that line. Firm, but with humor, the way I'd expect a modern man of faith would deliver it. Not fanatical and robotic. Jimmy has faith, and to others, even other believers, sometimes that kind of faith looks, well, crazy.
Amelia's fear is understandable, and the threat to take Claire away is just the kind of thing one would expect her to do. Conversely, it's just that kind of obstacle that Jimmy, as a man of faith, would be expected to face.
And, hey. Is that the same house/set they used for Mary's house in WIaWSNB? It looks kinda familiar.
So Jimmy can not only hear angles, but he can see them. Excellent.
"I am not your father." And there we go. Castiel's voice, and that's just pretty cool. Nice definition between characters in addition to the differences in physicality. Well played.
And it just hurts to see a man who's lost his faith. It's understandable, but it hurts.
And there's Sam, doing some begging of his own. And I believe here is where Ruby shows her true colors. Like any good pusher, she's now got Sam hooked. He can't get by without his fix, and he's desperate. She controls him now, which I believe was her plan all along. Last season the control came (or could have come) from the promise of helping him save Dean (which didn't work out real well, thanks to Dean). This season it's getting him addicted, and like any junkie, he'll do anything. And once Sam kills Lilith, Ruby will control the person who controls Lilith's minions. She's a sly one, that Ruby.
And this is why I could really love Jimmy. A man of faith who loves his wife and loves his daughter. That's why it hurts so much to see him lose his faith. For me, the gut punch comes when Claire asks, "Daddy, aren't you going to say grace?" And Jimmy's reply is a tearful "No, honey. I don't think I am." My eyes prick with tears at that. And I'm not sure someone who's not a person of faith can understand to the sorrow a believer feels when they see another believer lose their faith. Crises of faith, sure. Because questions and doubts are natural. But to completely give up on it . . . that's just . . .
And it hurts Jimmy as much as anyone. To live through the trials he's lived through, and to come out on the other side, and to give up his faith because of it. Within Show it's an understandable character point, but it's sad nonetheless.
And doorbell rings. Neighbor Roger looks really familiar. I think I've seen him play a villain in something before? Or maybe just a random security guard or something? Either way, he's a demon, Jimmy. Don't trust him!
Well, that's not good.
Oh good, Jimmy remembers about the salt.
Two demons on the job. Not good. But there's Dean with the Ginsu. Yay Dean!
Oh. Oh, Sam. See what addiction does? Oh, Sam.
"Where's your wife?" She's possessed. Why do you ask?
". . . vivisection, if they're feeling generous." Listen to him, Jimmy. Dean knows what he's talking about.
Wow, Sam. I'm with Dean. "Don't sugar coat it." He needs to understand, sure, but Sam? He's still a person with connections to a family. Must you really be so . . . vivid . . . about his options?
"These boys are gonna get you a car. Don't ask me how." And both Geo and I snickered at that because it's so . . . true.
Hotwire and "So, uh, here's your car." Bwah!
And of course Dean knows that something's up with Sam. It's very obvious.
And Jimmy yelling at Castiel is actually a good thing, in a way. Because in this case, anger indicates relationship, and there's no relationship without faith. So . . . while not ideal, it's still a good thing.
The actress who's playing Amelia and demon!Amelia? She's really very good. And kinda creepy about it. Nice versatility.
SHE SHOT JIMMY!!!!! And at this point my internal monologue becomes something like this:
But he can't die! They can't lose Misha! He had one more scene to shoot with Jensen, for the finale, right? Right? So we're not gonna lose Misha. Right. Okay. Scene with Jensen. Yes. Wewon'tloseMishawewon'tloseMishawewon'tloseMisha.
And Dean is horrified to see that. Jimmy, shot in the gut.
Castiel is in Claire! Excellent!!! Zapping demons!
Castiel saves Dean from being beaten to a pulp by a demon!
Sam . . . oh, Sam . . . going all vampire on the demon chick. Oh . . . And coming up all bloody, and now Dean and Cas know.
And Dean is naturally horrified that he just witnessed his brother sucking blood, let alone from a demon.
And when Sam comes at him with his hand stretched out, Dean flinches. Oh, Dean.
This next bit is beautiful. "Of course we keep our promises. Your work is done. It's time to go home now. Your real home." That's what a Christian longs to hear at the end of their days: "Well done, good and faithful servant."
Claire has chosen, chosen to let Castiel use her, just as her father did. Faith passed on.
And there's something in her blood, too.
But Jimmy's plea is for his daughter not to have to live through what he himself did.
" . . . Picture a hundred, a thousand, like it." So, Cas? How long, exactly, are you expecting to stick around? Or is that an estimate on how long Armageddon is going to last?
"You'll never age, you'll never die." But could you, ya know, feed him a cheeseburger every once in a while? I'm sure he'd appreciate it. I'm sure Dean would spring for the pie.
"I learned my lesson while I was away. I serve Heaven, I don't serve man. And I certainly don't serve you." Ouch. I mean, I totally understand where he's coming from. It's true an angel's first allegiance is to God. But angels are ministering spirits who actually do minister to man. But I need to remember that in the SPN 'verse, "Heaven" is not synonymous with "God," as I'm used to thinking of it. So there's that.
But I might post about the angels as ministering spirits thing after I'm done reading my angel book. That's a post for another time.
It's great to see Castiel as God's powerful warrior again. But I can't help but hurt a little bit for Dean as Castiel turns his back on Dean and walks away. I believe my comment going into commercial was, "Oh. Now, that's going to cause some consternation."
Dean has lost another of his very limited number of supporters in this, it would seem. *wibble*
This conversation between the brothers also hurts. Sam, asking for the fall-out, only to discover that Dean isn't going to oblige. Dean's tired (understandable) and ready to throw in the towel. You know it's bad if Dean is beyond throwing a punch or pitching a fit.
kalquessa and I had an interesting conversation in this regard. She's observed that arguing is Sam's validation, his proof, that he's right. He and John argued a lot, and that was Sam's confirmation that Sam was right and John was wrong. Same with the big blow-ups with Dean. But Dean's not blowing up this time, which means Sam isn't getting his confirmation of being in the right. He's not getting the chance to explain himself or validate his actions or do any of the things he's been doing for as long as we've known him to reassure himself. Therefore, things must be really bad. I thought that was a really interesting observation. In an observationally interesting kind of way.Of course, the "I am just done," apparently means "I'm just done talking, Sam. I'm done playing games. I'm done trying to get you to tell me the truth. I'm tired of fighting you at every turn. Now I know what's going on, I can do something about it."
Bobby! I saw your name in the opening credits, and I was wondering what took you so long to show up!
"So, uh, what's the big demon problem?" "You are." And they slam the door shut! And close the little portal thingy! WHAT???? *FLAILFLAILFAIL*
Oh, this is not good. This is so very, very not good.
Soon: Oh, this is bad. This is very, very bad. This is so very, very not good.
Detoxing Sam. And keeping him locked up. And . . . wow. Dean swears allegiance to God and his angels, in a very pragmatic and Dean-like way. And Sam confronting Lilith. And Zach returns. And Sam hallucinating Alistair (I assume he's hallucinating, since he killed Alistair), and he's gonna get a taste of what Dean went through in Hell. And Dean refusing to let Sam turn into a monster, and yet having had demon blood in him since he was six months old, and with the high quantities he's gotten recently, it might kill him not to get some.
And Sam beating Dean to a pulp. And Castiel somehow zapping Dean (?????) And Sam with icky vein things crawling over his face. And Sam getting tossed around the room.
And Sam and Ruby hooking back up. And Dean out to kill Ruby. And Dean telling Sam that if he leaves, don't ever come back *ouch*, and the final confrontation with Lilith.
This is so very, very not good.
*starts stocking for the pillow fort*
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I'm not sure I can take the finale.
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Many hugs to you.
I'm planning on taking a riverside vacation in Egypt after the finale. *nods*
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Re: Jimmy. Actually, I don't think he lost his faith at all. I think, like Sam, he's just had his comfortable preconceptions about God and heaven and service turned upside down. He had his prayers answered -- he got to serve God in a meaningful, specific way -- and it wasn't what he was expecting. When we saw him talking to Amelia, before his actual possession, we can see that he's quite proud that he's been chosen. There's a leetle bit of ego happening there, I think -- look, I'm special, this is so important. I'm important. And now he knows the reality of service is being chained to a comet, and it hurts, and it's terrifying, and God is so much bigger and stranger than he ever expected. So when he can't say grace, for me, it's not, I don't believe any more. For me, it's I've been shown my limitations. I'm weak, I'm frail, and I can't do it again. I'm not going to ask to serve God again. I've served God, and I'm too afraid to put my hand up for that a second time. It's his love for his daughter that conquers his fear. And I suspect it's Dean's love for Sam that makes him take that last, terrible step, and subordinate himself to God -- and Castiel. I think it's Dean's turn to get chained to the comet.
And I think it's an astonishing leap -- the Dean who sold his soul to hell to keep Sam alive is now a Dean who'll say -- better he dies than he lives like this. Because he's finally learned what the Trickster was trying to tell Sam: there are things worse than death.
Yikes. The finale is going to be massive and soulcrushing. I'm so impressed with the risks Kripke and co. are taking. And with this being the last year coming up, I hope they go balls to the wall and just rip it. Rip it all out, go there, no holding back. Make this the most intense, the most epic, the most astonishing final act.
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Re: Aaron Piecre . . . THAT'S IT!!!! Thank you so much for solving that puzzle. It was gonna drive me freakin' insane.
Re: Jimmy . . . excellent observations all the way around. Because "be careful what you pray for" is very wise advice. (I've always thought the Lord's Prayer, particularly the part that says, "forgive me as I forgive those who do me wrong," was a very dangerous prayer to pray.)
Also, the ego thing can be so subtle. On the one hand, he's excited that God has chosen him for service. Otoh, I completely see what you're saying with the "I'm special." Then finding out exactly what that entails. I still see his tears at the table as more of a turning away from God--considering the storyline and characters we've got going--but your point is very well taken, indeed. And as I said, Jimmy's yelling at Castiel and at heaven shows relationship. Rather like Job landing into God about everything God let him go through. *nods*
I want Show to go out in the most awesome and satisfying way they can. I've heard mumbled rumors of the possibility of a sixth season (which I don't put much stock in right now because they haven't even started shooting S5 yet; let's not jump the gun, shall we?), but at this point, with all the build-up, what, exactly, are they supposed to do after they save the world from the Apocalypse? Go to Disney World?
Thanks so much for your post. Because, dude. What you said. *points*
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The flinch hurt me more than anything else in the episode. Oh, boys.
Bobby FTW!!!
Soon! I think you'll need a pillow fort the size of The Great Wall of China.
Oh, boys.
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That's precisely why my first reaction was that Jimmy lost his faith. Not his belief, because, yeah. He lived through all that. But his faith in God, his faith that what he (Jimmy) had been a part of was for Good. There are a lot of people who believe in God, but they don't have faith that God will do what He says He will do. Ya know?
I saw it more as he was out now, he's over and done and ready to put it and everything that led up to it behind him. Start fresh--minus his devotion. That just hurts.
However, for some reason, I often find it heartening when people are mad at God because that anger demonstrates a relationship on some level. Perhaps not the most ideal level, depending on the reason for the anger, and what the person does with that anger makes a difference (allow it to fester or work through it), but it's a start. So seeing Jimmy yell and demand that heaven keep its promise to him . . . I found that encouraging.
There is much chewy thinkiness to be pondered where Jimmy's depiction of faith is concerned. I just really liked that he wasn't presented as fanatical beyond reason; rather, he was presented as earnest and sincere, if naive as to what service might entail. (See karenmiller's comment above.)
I feel like I'm not making sense. Topics dealing with faith are so personal, it's hard for me to put into words.
My fort will be build along the river in Egypt. Feel free to bring pie if you come visit. :-)
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And Dean telling Sam that if he leaves, don't ever come back
And it took me until I read it here (despite multiple viewings of the "Soon" trailer) to remember that this is what John told Sam when Sam left for Stanford. *full-body cringe*
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*weeps*
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The first thing that went through my mind when I heard that was owww. Or maybe it was *wibble*. Because Dean was chewing Sam out last week for quoting John, and soon Dean will be doing the same thing.
It just . . . hurts. All the way around.
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Oh, boys. *has no energy to even give that italics*
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*also brings gin, and rum for the Coke*
What? It goes fine with pie and cookies.
(haha, I need an alcohol-related icon)