Actually, some of the negativity with the show/character and my own identification with the character has gotten me to thinking about stuff that's been going on with me, and where I might need to make changes.

I've been going to a very difficult time the past few/several months, and while to someone else it might be "oh, you totally don't have it that bad" (and in a lot of ways I don't), the dissatisfaction and paranoia and fear have put me in a not fun headspace.

Being able to watch the show without any real "expectation" or the intense investment that I used to feel, while at the same time watching Dean's issues and saying hey, I need to let this go/move on/re-evaluate . . . I don't know, it's just weirdly helpful.

Maybe.

I'm not expressing myself well.